Christmas.. :)
As a kid, the 25th of December was a day I awaited with baited breath.. My mum and I would decorate the Christmas tree and sing along to merry songs. When the day finally ariived, I'd be the first to wake up. I'd run around the whole house..literally waking the neighbours up as well. Then we'd open presents and just be a happy family. My young christmases were always a day to eat a real feast..the works.. My mom would truly out do herself with the food.. yumm :)
But a lot has changed since then..well since 2008, to be specific.
That day, 25th of December 2010 goes down as possible on of the most tragic days of all my years.
It was a normal day. Well, a normal Christmas, except we were at my Gran's house.
My mom, her mom and me, were all lazing about the house..chatting about something I've forgotten. What ever it was, it was funny. I remember because I couldn't stop laughing but the laugh was like one I'd never had before.
For starters, my tummy hurt but not from laughing too hard. Usually my hurt from three things ; laughing a lot, being in trouble or something being EXTREMELY WRONG. Of course, I thought, it's Christmas..what could possibly be wrong?
The answer to my question awaited me the following day while I was watching a movie at home.
The landline rang. I answered. The person on the other end was a classmate of mine. She sounded frustrated and very sad. The first thing she said was "Have you heard the news?", to which I said "Well Merry Christmas to you too..what news?". Silence. "Hello?", I said.
What I heard next, was a sentence that haunts me to this very day.
My friend, one of my closest, had tragically passed away in a car accident the day before - Christmas.
She was gone. Dead. Never to be seen or heard from ever again.
Fast forward to today : 24th of December 2010.
I sit here, thinking about my friend. Her warm smile. Her gentle hugs. Her irritating sneeze. Her infectious laughter and smile. I think about her..
To say I miss her would be an insult to my actual emotion.
But anyway, as much as she loved attention, I know she wouldn't want me to be getting teary-eyed over her. So I won't. And neither should you..over any one you have lost.
There's no shame in dying.
Over the past 2 years without my friend, I've learnt to embrace life.
To cherish those around you..
It's never too late to say that "I love you", that "I'm sorry", that "I forgive you".
Make sure the ones you love know how you feel. You may never get a chance to let them know.
So to my dear friend, up there in Heaven, right next to God, I miss you.
It's hard without you but I know you're right here..with me in spirit.
I Love You.
x
Merry Christmas, World!
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